{"id":32,"date":"2023-05-23T22:43:26","date_gmt":"2023-05-23T22:43:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/?p=32"},"modified":"2023-05-23T22:44:52","modified_gmt":"2023-05-23T22:44:52","slug":"finding-my-words-again-join-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/?p=32","title":{"rendered":"Finding my words again, join me?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image aligncenter size-full\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"400\" height=\"600\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jessicawagoner.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/typewriter.webp?resize=400%2C600&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-14\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I was diagnosed with end-stage renal failure and started dialysis in May 2021. Since that time it has been challenging for me to write. This is quite a problem for someone who makes a living with words. Not only do I make my living with words but writing has frequently been my lifeline, a way to make sense of my world and my place in it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have written for so many years and in so many ways. Journals, blogs, websites, newspapers, magazines, and ebooks. But once I got sick the harder it got for me to write. I have pretty intense brain fog, which makes it hard to focus for long. I&#8217;m also exhausted. Dialysis and just having a dying body makes a gal tired. But the main reason I quit writing was because it was too painful. If I wrote about what I was experiencing it made it all too real. Having a terminal illness is real enough so I just shut down in the writing world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This plan was at first workable. I could avoid my feelings and didn&#8217;t seem to miss the writing too much. But as time has gone on it has become obvious that I need to be writing. Despite it being a challenge, it benefits me too much to continue avoiding it. So I&#8217;m diving back in. I&#8217;ve been doing some professional writing this whole time, mama has bills to pay after all, but I&#8217;m going to be increasing those efforts. I&#8217;m also going to be maintaining a personal blog again. I don&#8217;t know if anyone will read it, but I need an outlet. I need to find my words again. Most of all, I need to find out who this new me is. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Join me along the way. I can&#8217;t promise it will be pretty, but I will keep things real. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I was diagnosed with end-stage renal failure and started dialysis in May 2021. Since that time it has been challenging for me to write. This is quite a problem for someone who makes a living with words. Not only do I make my living with words but writing has frequently been my lifeline, a way [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":14,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-wagoner-world"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/jessicawagoner.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/typewriter.webp?fit=400%2C600&ssl=1","jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=32"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":33,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32\/revisions\/33"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/14"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=32"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=32"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jessicawagoner.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=32"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}